Two down a few more to go.

Yesterday I had a very busy day that involved meeting someone from Facebook properly for the first time. It started with a trip to the cinema to watch Battleship, which as a movie is just fun entertainment. And then to see the final Rehearsal of Elgar’s Dream of Gerontius, which was performed by the City of Birmingham Symphony orchestra with choral accompaniment.

This second part was the best as it crossed off two items on my bucket list, first was to see a full live orchestra and the second was to hear a full choir now it was sheer luck to get the opportunity to do those things in one event I was offered an opportunity and I took it. I am very grateful to the individual for the opportunity and I thanked them as soon as I got back to my room. Now it could seem strange that I have a bucket list in my thirties but you never know, death is but a careless moment away. I still have a fair few left to go one should be crossed off by the end of next year at the earliest and that is to have a motorcycle license and bike so I can go where I please and do less damage to the environment than just myself in a car. Then all I need to do is get my certificate in teaching and see more of the world than Redditch, Birmingham and Hastenbeck.  

As things go I seem to be doing better without the Ex-girlfriend, and she said that I wouldn’t go anywhere. My only reply is Screw you bitch. I have had a lovely taste of a culture I would never have got when I was with you and I am well on my way to being mobile and highly independent, something you denied yourself for two years while completely ignoring my advice which you have been doing three years later. Yet you called me a hypocrite. Now I’ll be heading to the Alvechurch Ale festival (Once I have found out the date) then I shall see more old friends and see some Morris dancing (more culture that would have been denied me through denial of cash). All in all things are looking up for me, next thing to do is get a new computer and sign up for my course in September, providing that it isn’t coded wrong again.

Brightest Blessings

Steven

Legacies

"Your world can end in the blink of an eye. One event, one unexpected twist of fate & suddenly the world as you knew it is gone forever. All that you held dear, all that you held close... is washed away in a sea of distant memory. Life is cruel. Of this I have no doubt. But life continues on... with, or without you. One can only hope that one leaves behind a lasting legacy. But so often, the legacies we leave behind... are not the one we intended." - Queen Myrrah, Gears of War 2

 

There is something about this monologue at the end of one of my favourite games that said something to me, I’m not too sure what it is bit there is something in my mind that connects to this piece. Maybe it’s my wish to have a lasting legacy, something that says that I was here on this planet at this time that I was alive. I am human and I am honestly afraid of death at the moment mainly because I have so much left to be done.

Last post I edited as per a civil request for a change rather than a threat of legal action, but what I originally posted was true to my understanding. If those who read it fail to understand my original message that is their problem, what I write and what you the reader understand are to wholly different problems, what I write here is part of my legacy but only part, a fair few people try to use their children as a legacy and live through them, this is a foolish idea as the child is an independent soul that has the right to determine their own path as do people all over the world.

I hoped part of my living legacy was going to be a stronger Wendy Bostock but instead she imprisoned and enslaved herself to an assumption that I was a child and an abusive individual, this was an idiotic misconception on her part. Yes I had some growing up to do but this would have been better achieved with a supportive partner rather than a controlling one who spent more time complaining about her choices to give up on her dreams, if you have time to complain you have time to act.

I don’t care what my legacy is entirely so long as it shows that I lived on this planet and I meant something to someone, even if it was as a demon that the Gods screamed the truth through. These blogs are part of that but not the only part, yes life is cruel it always was and always will be. It is not about what life throws at you but how you deal with it in the long run, not how long it takes you to deal so long as you do.

I’ll leave you now with a statement from Dr. Seuss.

Be who you are and say what you feel,

For those that matter don’t mind and those that mind don’t matter.

Brightest blessings

Steven