Transit Review or Home 2

Over the past few days I have taken some advice from an astrologer on TV and for the transit of Venus I decided to review my relationship in order to evaluate where I went wrong, and one thing I will say is that I failed to admit my feelings properly and I have failed to do so in my blog.

I recently paid a visit to Wendy because of an issue with my Bank, and I realised that the only place I feel at home and happy is with her, like it or not and all I have been doing is distracting myself from the gaping hole in my heart and lieing to myself about how I felt. I know that she is interested in another man and that hurts me more than any weapon ever made, but I cannot in good conscious stand in her way but I have to do this in order to relieve the tension in my heart.

I know I was not the best Boyfriend in the world and I will be the first to admit that and I am ashamed to have treated Wendy the way I did during the hospital runs, that behavior was out of frustration as I had told her repeatedly roughly what she needed to do but her pride and a poorly controlled personality disorder got in the way. I should have explained that the way she acted was often contrary to what she said and that was one primary cause of stress for me, the other was paying for the death of Behemoth. That computer was frankly on its way out I remember that if she picked it up wrong the computer would blue screen of death until she restarted it, I honestly did not mind having to pay for the netbook as I acquired that through nefarious means.

I should have explained that I felt that I was being used just as domestic help and that I was paying her for the privilege and that you cannot have rich and poor under the same roof without conflict. To finish I still love you Wendy and that as much as it hurts me I wish you luck in her new relationship and hope you learn from your mistakes.

Steven